In the fall of 2018, a series of events lead me to being admitted to a hospital for suicide watch. I was released after Thanksgiving but continued to be in a constant state of depression.
Session 1: Depression is a project that I worked on during my depression from 2018 to 2019. This is the complete unmodified version. The first version was originally posted to youtube heavily cut with dialogue footage that censored the explicit footage. It is a compilation consisting mostly of still and body rigged shots with my cellphone. The film consists mostly of long shots of myself trying to get out of bed to be productive. I then incorporated unexpected jump cuts to scenes that expose intrusive thoughts, self-harm, anxiety attacks, and recollections of unhealthy coping.
PLEASE READ BEFORE WATCHING!
“SESSION 1: DEPRESSION” CONTAINS SCENES THAT MAY MAKE SOME VIEWERS UNCOMFORTABLE AND IS NOT RECOMMENDED TO BE VIEWED BY ANYONE UNDER THE AGE OF 18.
-THE FILM CONTAINS GRAPHIC SEQUENCES AND REFERENCES OF SELF-MUTILATION. THE USE OF THE WORD “RAPE” IS USED ONCE DURING A SEX SCENE TO DESCRIBE THE CORRUPT STATE OF MIND DURING DEPRESSION AND HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH RAPE. THIS FILM ALSO CONTAINS BRIEF FULL NUDITY, DRINKING, SMOKING, LANGUAGE, SCENES OF DISTRESS, SEXUAL IMAGERY AND SOUND.
-WHEN THIS INSTALLATION WAS DEBUTED AT WINDOWS, IT HAD NO INVOLVEMENT TO THE SECOND INDIVIDUAL THAT THE EXHIBITION WAS ABOUT. HOWEVER, IT DOES SHARE A CONNECTION TO THE WORK THAT FOCUSED ON OUR SEPARATE LIVES.
-EVERYTHING YOU SEE IS FROM PAST EXPERIENCES AND DOES NOT RELATE TO MY CURRENT MENTAL STATE. MY DEPRESSION IS NOW MANAGEABLE WITH MY FOCUS ON MINDFULNESS, HEALTHY ROUTINES, AND LIFESTYLE CHOICES.
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CREATED BY: BRENNEN CABRERA
STARRING: BRENNEN CABRERA AND ANONYMOUS